National Poetry Month: poem #1

so, I just finished a challenge on my Kaleidoscope blog. check out 30 Days of Days and be sure to catch other challenge-takers on the left side under "dem challenge takers".  seeing that it is National Poetry Month, I figured perhaps NOW would be the time to pursue some inspiration.

i've been lacking in this department...not writing poetry...for some time now. it's definitely overdue. so, here's my first poem...a freestyle.

who i am

if ever there was truth

to the assumption of who i am

i'd be lord over many minds

more hearts

and a few hands

i'd be a big deal

a glorious display

a kween without a throne

i'd be a catcher's mitt,

a wide receiver

for all the shade that's been thrown

if i were to manifest

the hateful words

used to describe my vibe

i'd be a everything,

but a child of God

if i bought into the lies

see, 

some have marked me victim

because i dare to respond with "ouch"

some have marked me sneaky

because i don't air my dirty laundry out...

i'm naive (which is funny, since i'm also deceptively evil)

i'm petty (which causes guffaws, since i'm supposed to be too good to people)

i'm everything

and nothing

i'm a liar

hated for the truth

i'm spoken of in whispers

my flaws supposedly proof

if i believed myself

to be deserving of what i'm served

i'd dig the ditch

lie down in the bitch

and cover myself with dirt

but, i know better

i be a kween...so fuck what'chu heard