Tuesday, July 27, 2010

i want

i want someone
with a backbone
made of a boomerang
that says, "made for kali"
that way...
wherever he goes...
he'll always return to the manufacturer
i want someone who will say,
"if i'm gonna be a fool...
...i wanna be YOUR fool"
unafraid of razing through walls
and shields of perceived perfection
meant to deflect displays of affection
i want someone who
doesn't count every thing we go through
as the last thing we'll experience together...
i want someone who won't count my words against me
deficits of disagreement
the truth that hurts
and the feelings that need validation
that i'll never be
"one comment away"
from the end of us
saying that thing
and it's echo living beyond the love we have
turning into finite silence
i want someone who if he walks away
the spiritual tether between us
will bring him RIGHT back
i want someone whose fear of what it LOOKS like
never overwhelms  the truth of what it IS...
man enough for the woman i am
and boy enough to stay innocent with me
i want someone who...
even though he has met women
with more this
or less that
they never compare...
i am the voice his soul heeds
and the kiss his body needs
i want someone...
who wants me...
so much...
that when he's even thinking of leaving...
his mind denies him the vision of him without me
i want someone that...
even after falling for the best of me...
he falls even harder for the worst of me
don't you want someone,
whose essential self...ALONE
has the power to will you to betterment?
someone whose love,
heals you
makes your weaknesses blend
with the strengths
and gives your smiles longevity?
someone who knows exactly what you are...
and isn't trying to augment you
into what you aren't?
i want someone
who wants me, too...
not the me they've imagined
or the me they've settled for
i want someone...who knows
that we'll always be a work in progress
and that no one has the power to dismember
what we've built intently...
what do YOU want?

Monday, July 19, 2010

butterfly love

you're gone
stepping back into the shadows
melting into the scenery
only YOU have done this
gotten used to...
moving in and out of my life
settling in deep
burrowing underneath my pain
to unearth my passions
and then killing yourself
to break free
in the beginning...
you sweetly placed a kaleidoscope of butterflies
through my navel
and into my belly
to you...
your voice...
your laugh...
your energy's caress
you created this place
for your effect on me
and i didn't want to let it go...
and then again...
you left
and they followed
taking the breath from me
as they burst through
simply obedient to their creator...
where'd you place them?
whose being flutters to your charms?
who is living off the residue of my love for you?
whose heart has wings i wore before?
NOW...[damn you]
my belly is empty...
i'm hungry...
yet, not sated by physical sustenance
or any other
my core is,
left rumbling by flirtations
and invitations
and attempted subjugations
from others trying to own my love
but it is you...
and what is most disturbing
is that you
aren't...and was ever
meant to stay
your fly by night love
with it's stay for ever feel...
was always meant to go
you only know how to lay the love down
you have no clue
how to keep the love anchored
thank you, though...
it felt like heaven
but it's gone...
bye butterfly love

in the butterfly net...

i ink...i flow...i pen,
my soul, my words, my zen